I am sarcastic, sensitive, insecure about my body, a mom, cook, chauffer, full time worker, wife. I pretty much write about whatever comes into my head. I don't filter much so watch out!

I'm stuck in a rut but determined to be the best me I can be. I turn 40 in June 2015. Let's see if I can get my ass in gear to lose 40 pounds and run a half marathon by then.

 

Flashback Friday Part 2:

8th and 9th grade so 1987-88. I clearly have a can of Aqua Net Silver hidden in my purse just off set that I used to maintain the height in the front. That can of hairspray went with me everywhere.

My favorite band was Erasure…when my mom found out they were gay she was really pleased.

Same woman who wouldn’t buy me the George Michael “faith” album because he wants your sex.

Flashback Friday…I can’t remember if I’ve posted this before but it’s a gem.

Good Lord…hair for days.  I still have that head of hair it’s just tamed.  I found a ton of old pics last night…I’ll post some more later.

Flashback Friday…I can’t remember if I’ve posted this before but it’s a gem.

Good Lord…hair for days. I still have that head of hair it’s just tamed. I found a ton of old pics last night…I’ll post some more later.

TBT

1995…another Olan Mills gem.  I have since started plucking my eyebrows and my hair isn’t quite as large….although curly bangs…maybe try that again??  

That was right in the middle of my lip liner/dark lipstick phase.

TBT

1995…another Olan Mills gem. I have since started plucking my eyebrows and my hair isn’t quite as large….although curly bangs…maybe try that again??

That was right in the middle of my lip liner/dark lipstick phase.

Apparently George has been drinking behind my back.  No one wants to own up to this.  I found him like this hanging out on the kitchen counter.  I myself prefer Dos Equis or a glass of red wine but there is no accounting for taste.

Apparently George has been drinking behind my back. No one wants to own up to this. I found him like this hanging out on the kitchen counter. I myself prefer Dos Equis or a glass of red wine but there is no accounting for taste.

I feel better today. Nothing external has changed but I’ve decided I want to be happy so I’m not dwelling on it. I have two pretty awesome kids and a husband who sat and listened to me bitch last night. He held my hand and was pretty much the best husband ever.

I am a happy person. When I get upset or pissed I get over it quickly. I don’t dwell. I promised myself that I would give it some time…let things play out.

Plus I had bundtinis (mini Bundt cupcakes) today from Nothing Bundt Cakes.

And can I just say that I would pretty much lick anything if it had cream cheese icing on it????

I feel very undervalued right now. I hate work. I’m lonely. I have spent the last two days lost inside my head with a lump in my throat.

I hate that’s job makes me feel this way.

Random Wednesday

1.  When I was in the 4th grade I went to a neighbor girl’s house and she made me watch Poltergeist.  I’m pretty sure this is what scarred me for any future scary movies and I always jump onto my bed just in case there is a clown under there. I saw a preview for some movie coming out called the Quiet Ones and nope….aka…Fuck that Shit.  I can’t even handle a preview!

2.  My son asked me yesterday if I had any ex boyfriends and did we kiss?  I ended up not answering the question since he is 8.  Umm sadly I don’t really have any ex boyfriends.  I was pretty innocent in high school and college and didn’t mess around.  Plus I was the girl who had all male friends who thought I was cool like a guy and apparently not like a girl.  If I went out with a group of friends I was never the one that got hit on.

Random Wednesday

1. When I was in the 4th grade I went to a neighbor girl’s house and she made me watch Poltergeist. I’m pretty sure this is what scarred me for any future scary movies and I always jump onto my bed just in case there is a clown under there. I saw a preview for some movie coming out called the Quiet Ones and nope….aka…Fuck that Shit. I can’t even handle a preview!

2. My son asked me yesterday if I had any ex boyfriends and did we kiss? I ended up not answering the question since he is 8. Umm sadly I don’t really have any ex boyfriends. I was pretty innocent in high school and college and didn’t mess around. Plus I was the girl who had all male friends who thought I was cool like a guy and apparently not like a girl. If I went out with a group of friends I was never the one that got hit on.

I need a nap…and some food maybe in reverse order.

My 90 year old Grandpa posted the photo above on Facebook the other day and called it the original Selfie. He cracks me up!

I can’t imagine what it’s like being at the end of your life. He knows he has a finite number of years left. He posts political commentary in an effort to “influence” the younger generation as much as he can. He typically ends up pissing off his grand kids with his archaic ideas.

It doesn’t bother me. He suffered through the Depression, fought for his country, raised 4 daughters and had earned his opinions.

He has been going through old photos for a while now. I used to sit for hours and go through all of their photo albums when I was a kid. I thought I had seen all of them but the pic he posted I had never seen. He was a handsome young man…I don’t want to get old. It scares me.

How I almost lost my Fulbright

angeldrinkstea:

I’m a part of a facebook group for those of us who received the Fulbright for Germany for 2014-2015.

Mid-week last week many comments about placements and formally accepting the grant started pouring in. What? They already heard? What email?

Friday morning I received an email from my mentor…

How stressful but Yay!!! I’m so excited for you!!!